My girlfriend needs to be back in my arms right now. I miss her so much. :(
But, no. I have to wait 2 more weeks. -_-
I have class in less than 5 hours and yet all I can think about is my girlfriend and how much I miss her.
Y’all, I get to see my girlfriend next weekend. This fact might not have any meaning or be even remotely important to any of you…but I can’t even explain how happy and excited I am. I haven’t seen her in three weeks. I miss her so much. And I just can’t wait to finally see her again and hold her and kiss her and just have her here with me. <3
I love you, Ashley.
One minute you’re happy because everything seems to be going right and the next thing you know everything starts going down hill. You try to do everything you possibly can to keep things right, but somehow no matter how hard you try, things are determined to fall apart. You were the one stable thing I had in my life. You were the one thing that made sense to me. You were everything to me. You were who I turned to when I needed someone’s support. You were who I turned to when there was nothing I wanted more than a little time to just rant about my emotions and feelings. You were the girl of my dreams. Your face was the face I would’ve loved to have woken up to each morning. Your voice was the the voice I would love to hear saying “I love you” or “Good morning”. Everything about you was extraordinary to me. I could listen to our song and look at pictures of you all day and it wouldn’t bother me a bit; I’d smile and giggle because you’re just so absolutely gorgeous. But now, you’re no longer mine so things aren’t the same. Now, when I see a picture of you I can’t help but think about how if I were there, I wouldn’t be able to kiss you or hold your hand, or any other things we used to talk about. Now, when I hear our song, I can’t hold back the tears. Now, when I’m cuddling Filipe at night, I cry because there’s no one else I want to take his place aside from you. Now, when we’re talking I have to avoid any use of “sweet talk” (i.e. baby, babygirl, beautiful, darlin’, gorgeous, etc.) because we’re not together and it somewhat crosses a line. Now, when I see a dog that looks like Chloe, I can’t help to cry because it makes me think of all the adorable times I saw y’all on Skype and how cute y’all were. When I see anything dealing with California I can’t help the reaction my heart has; my heart beat gets really fast and loud, almost as if it’s about to jump right out of my chest. I catch myself reading the text messages I locked from months back and it never fails that I cry because it makes me miss how things used to be. I catch myself reading our last texting conversation we had before my phone got cut off and I catch myself crying over that one too because it made reality sink in. There are just so many different things about you that I’ll never be able to get over. No matter how hard I try, certain things will always remind me of you. Certain things will always cause me to have a certain reaction. Certain things will always make me cry because it’ll remind me of how things used to be and how they possibly will never be again. All I know is that with or without you, you’re still amazing. You’re still the girl of my dreams. You’re still who I see when I close my eyes at night. You’re still who I see when I wake up in the mornings. You’re still the girl I want by my side. You’re it. It’s you. And if someday you tell me that I have no other choice and that I have to get over you, that’ll be a hurdle that I’ll deal with when I come to it. But at this point, I can’t give up. I can’t let go. My love for you is far too strong. And you know what? I’m not going anywhere. I love you, Caitlin.
I’m so cold.
All I want to do right now is cuddle in my bed with her.
Just to have her in my arms.
I’m sick. :(
I have a stuffy nose and I keep coughing.
This is NOT fun.
I wish my girlfriend was here to come cuddle with me and make me feel better…
She may be 2,763 miles away from me, but she doesn’t even have to try to put a smile on my face. Just seeing her beautiful face is enough. She’s all that I could ever want and so much more. I’m so damn lucky. <3
7 months and counting.
You mean the world to me, sweetheart.
And, I hope to have many, many more anniversaries with you in the future.
I love you. Always. <3 :)